I never thought that I was a competitive person. Years of playing Squash for Hampshire and not once did I beat myself up about losing, not being able to attend practice or moving down the country rankings. But, today I feel quite unwell, to the point where I have skipped the Winter Handicap run and I am already starting to stress about my training schedule.
I knew that by tying running to something so very important it would encourage me to persevere with something that I have given up on over the years. I never thought I would start stressing over missing training runs or worrying about my PB. It never occurred to me that I might care about my race times!
I am surrounded by a lot of people that run, obviously at the running club and also at work.
I need to remind myself that I have only been training as a runner in earnest for a total of 4 weeks. I do feel proud of what I have achieved in a short amount of time but also thoughts lurk in the back of my mind such as "as a dedicated and committed gym bunny of over 4 years shouldn't I be a better runner already?" The short answer is NO! Running it not easy, thats why many, many people do not do it. It's a skill and like all skills it needs to be learnt. I need to give myself a break.
I am always the one to point out other peoples achievements and encourage them to celebrate the wins... I need to be my own cheerleader! I'm good at faking it i front of other people. I figure fake it til you make it!
So I'm missing one training run, is it the end of world? No! Will it ultimately effect my end goal? No! So... give myself a break.
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